Annoying??

OMFG my fkin brother is sooo annoying and lucky I haven't hurt the fkin shit out of him cus of all the fkin shit comin out of his mouth... DON'T TELL ME TO FKIN RELAX!!!!!!!!!!!

Startover

When someone says they wanna start over it never really starts over it just continues with both sides trying not to mention something that they don't want to mention anymore but they always end up mentioning something they have put a limit on... Yep i finished it for you =]

I finished it more :O
Nyxr

Jelousy part 2

Seeing someone happy puts saddness in my heart. But when you see people sad saddness also takes place but never seems to be as bad as when you see them happy is there something wrong if a person ever feels like that.

I think that if someone helps someone else they should be happy that they have helped the other person to gain a fufillingness but i have never seemed to understand how someone could be happy for a loss maybe im just too greedy....

Anger...

I myself is a person that is easily angered but rarely to the point of when i want someone to feel loss, today ther was some retard that parked in our driveway and when i reversed out they wer sitting in the car like they had not noticed that i had tried to reverse out of my drive way but was obstructed so then i beeped at them but still nothing i got angry so i went to the the driver and asked them to move with the rare "please" added in they still didnt move at that point i wanted to put a large key marking on the persons car but they then moved when they saw me returning i really wanted to destroy that car...

Re to a friends advice..

Reason i have not gone out and asked is because i do not belive it will sucseed because first of all i am not happy with myself and would like to be happy with my on physical self befor i start to build the courage to confront the one i am captivated by... =]

Dear friend

i would like to say , to my friend who might read this, that i never said that i never thought anyone hid things from the world =]. In order to be truthfull to one another first of all there must be trust as you said urself =]. The reason i am doing things like i am is because i do not belive people really understand me or want to...

I do trust you but i do know that it is bugging you that you think you do not know me well. Giving people false thoughts is not really an intention it maybe sometimes but it is all to do with one thing and that is because people dont really like the truth the truth hurts people most of the time... yes u maybe gullable but that is one of the features that make you who you are =]. But what have i done to make you think that i have mislead you?i just dont answer if you ask something that i dont answer, if you havent noticed i change the subject pretty quickly =].

I feel that you feel insulted at how i may play my mind games =]. You may be shy but not in all areas you are only shy if you feel you are going to make a fool of urself but if you are certain in something you will go ahead and do what you have intended.

It was always ment to be harmless fun and i have never told you that i was lying if i really was..

Nyxr ^^

Love

How are you ment to tell someone that you love them without them changing their reaction when you meet them my only soloution is hypnotisim at the moment i dunno y people get so defensive or weireded out when they get asked or told that their is a person that loves them.

Is it because they dont wanna be seen with u in public not good enough???

If not good enough y not just tell them what they can do to fix it or how they can hide ther flaws, because in the end when you end up in the relation ship each other will find the flaws that they will not like in the end they will fight about it then end up accepting the fact that they are just that type of person unless they cant bear the fact that the flaw exsist in them they will eventually sepertate...

My real question is how would i know that they would love back???

Acting

The act that i put on clouds everyone around so they never see how i really am only a few people have seen through my cloud and seen my true feelings and how i really react to many things but sadly they are people who have not known enough to see what i want....

Happiness ^^

Happiness comes after and befor saddness because happiness is light if it dosent exsist then darkness will have taken over but with less worrisome the light glows more freely so that the light can be seen alot more easily.

I'm here only for you…

When ever I'm on msn I always seethed people online but they never seem to talk to me so am I just another contact with no significant meaning unless I am of use for their help? And y the fk would some one pretend your invisabe after youhave helped then e.g you talk to them they will never reply… oh well I guess that if they will be like this I'll just be the same to them… I beloved that no one deserves to be treated like that.
on a happier note seeing someone run around in a towel makes me wonder if they are hinting something.=]

Jealousy?

You help someone your happy to see them happy about what you have helped them achieved but deep inside i get that feeling that they will not need my help anymore so then i will end up ignoring that person whenever they try to talk about what i have helped them in. would that be "jealousy"???

Is it only me or does this happen to other people too??? the fear of not being needed.....

What is better?

What way of knowin someone is better? Is it through the net? By looks? Or just face to face talking? Personally I rekon that if I was to know someone I would try to findout about them through the net or find out where most of their personal life is documented every has one somewhere it us just where and how it can be interpreted....

The Dark Dark Sky

Ahh daylightsaving has kicked in again and we shall see the night sky at 4pm once again. ^^

Monopoly

Monopoly WHAT a game lol minimum 6hrs to play this game is a game that makes time jump when ur playing with fun people but if u play with rule tight or faggots the time will seemlessly SLOWWW down.

So love the game but not love the game really depends who is playing :) though kinda similar with strip poker =]

Dear Jodie

JODIE

YOUR AWSOME : )

HAHAHAHAH

and i will drive you anywhere u want for free

bcos your my coolest sister in the world :P *NOT!!!!*

Saddness

As the days of my life go on i see pain saddness happiness laughter but the emothion i feel most is saddness maybe because i just ever happy with myself oh well i guess thats me sad an emo so yea this is my first blog post and thats how im feeling i hope it gets better.

There are people i really like but i just cant tell them becuase if i said so the awkwadness will make our friendship be lost...