Late people

Just to think if you are late all the time wouldn't you work out a way so you wouldn't be late.... Even after pushing the time back you are STILL LATE... How the hell can you be half an hour late after pushing the time back half an hour there is just no logical explanation for this... Does that mean you would have been an hour late if you didn't push the time back.... THATS ONE WHOLE HOUR...... How can you be late for an hour when you have had all the time in the world to get ready unlike me i had to go to work then go home and get ready in under an hour and still made it in time.... I'm assuming that you just left your "getting ready" till later cause if you didn't i would just have no other explanation to how the hell you could be one hour late.....

On another note i seem to be addicted to m&ms an music at the moment so i guess its okay to have someone let you down when you have music and food....

Next week i shall be enrolling into uni that should be fun

Faith

Airplanes they fly to different places almost every day... I would love to get away from this place and just go somewer i didnt know anyone and start over... Only if...

Faith is is not the "i belive in a god" thing its just something that is usually paired with a god, but the faith i am talking about is the trust in other people

Sometimes i wish i was really a gangster then it would be so cool to have what a sucsessful gangster has 

Is it just me or is itthe shire people that just annoy me 

BIRTHDAY at 3am in the morning...(unhappy)

It has occurred to me lately that i have started to hate everyone again because i get the feeling that they think I'm boring or annoying, so yeah i don't know why this happens but i just get the feeling that i just don't belong in the situation of what ever I'm doing lately people around me getting so much stuff happening in their lives while mine is just as boring as normal....

Talking about luck i don't know why but my brother seems to just always gets stuff easier or better because he has people that like to talk to him where as i never seem to have that happen.... people want me to tell them secrets but there is really nothing i can say that i want people to know because it is either embarrassing or i just cant tell them because there are always reasons...

see i have this friend she doesn't seem to like to talk to me as much any more as i have seen tonight maybe i did something wrong but i don't recall anything that i did , i wish people would just tell me why i am so socially awkward so i can try to fix them up... i don't wanna be like this but it seems to just happen, i don't know how to really open up to people or tell funny jokes I'm just lameee..................

Talking about love, i don't think i will ever really fall in love with someone because the more i find out a person the more i dislike the way they operate, but there is always this lust for what kind of a person this is....

Dreams

Three nights in a row i have had really detailed dreams that i can remember but only two of them i can actually remember in detail this is weird because i dont normally have dreams in such detail...

First night... it was a dream that the world had been taken over where the skies never cleared with the greyish gloomy clouds as if evil had arrived, i was in a vault with a door like the one in inception it was weird, actually come to think of it the story was kind of like inception because i was with a group of people in front of this safe door, some my family and the others were like security guards, and one leader that was trying to get into the safe, they got in but they found nothing it was an empty safe... the angry leader turned around and told us to look for it... then mysteriously i ended up in my house with the others standing outside like it was a stand off.... one of the security guards holding a gun with a really long samuri sword on his back... so i went to look for something that could kill with me keeping range.

I searched every inch of the house and i found nothing... so i ended up going to the kitchen to get a knife.. when i went to throw at the guard about to use the sword on his back to sever the connection of someone that i knew but i cant remember it was a family member... so i steadied myself for the throw.. i hesitated because thinking that i will miss because of the range that i had to throw it... but in the end when i threw the knife it was gracefully flying through the air towards the guard when it was about to hit the gurd he caught it and then threw it straight back at me that was when i woke up... realising that my house has no dangerouse objects to throw and will kill people.

Day 2

Second dream i cant for sure remember if it was it but i was being forced into a room of food :/

Then i woke up.... weirdest dream that has ever happened..

Normally i just have a dream about a little house with a green patch of grass surrounding it then large gears swinging like a pengelum swinging closer and closer to the house but it never reaches the house to destroy it... that dream normally means that i am about to get sick haha.

MAybe it is just the stress or saddness of having to wake up and go pack to tafe... 

Silence.....

Sometimes all we need is some time with someone but all they seem to do is try to find out what is really wrong... but all you really wanted is to be with them.. no words... nothing at all but to just be with them... But you dont want to tell them its just that feeling when they really understand what you want when you want it... but when questions get asked it just annoys...

A place i have always dreamed of a sea of green grass with people that i just want to be with just for that moment.... but i cant see that happening.... atleast not with the people...

Annoyed

Grrrr everthing is soo annoying the way people walk, things people complain about, things people want me to do argh why do you all have to be soo annoying.....

Hate how im so fat.... Hate how friends love to back stab on each other thats just tells me that they would just do the same for me.....

I want new shirts now all of mine are soo streached aroud the collar gahhh. I just look at my jacketwith disgust of how big it just is..... Arrrr i hate myself....

Hate accents when people dont speak properly or too softly oe really enphisise the 's' in words gah every sing thing jus bugs me ><.... You just cant understand them.... I just dont know why the accent is just soo annoying... News... All ther is now is just murder... Its so boring >< cant anyone find something intresting to write about? Just soo angry.. Why would you tell someone such a thing when you know that it will end badly if it wer me i would just stop and make something up instead of just ripping it all apart.. Ubless that was the intention.

Hate the mointain of work i have infront of me... Hate the people who woke me up this morning wish i had a proper job.... Soo many things i wish i had but nop i dont have them.. Yes yes i know i maybe lukier than others but that is their bad luck. Whoeber is content with what they have well good for them... Im not...

Bad day

Today hasnt been a very lucky day for me but i like todays weather just where the sun is, not too high yet air is still fresh if only i didnt have to be stuck on this train and could be lying in a large green patch of grass rite in the middle with no one around to ruin my day. Lupe Fiasco - Show Goes On.... Even though i may like natural disasters i still like the occasional days but im afraid this day will not be the same cus the sun will not stay in its position that it will be at foe 830 and the air around me wont smell as fresh.

Yesterday my day ended badly cus so many things just didnt work out the way i just wish it would but what the hell can i do about it. I guess i could try to fix it but nop i just didnt wanna do it... 

Hmm not a picture i was looking for but of well....

New skill?

Haha its the first time i have ever drawn with pen and paper... all free hand, i like it when the picture actually turns out like its meant to but every drawing i do there is something that i just cant get right.

At this moment in time i can only draw pokemon hahaha but i find it fun.. there is nothing else i can create from my imagination... just like everything else i am just missing a skill to communicate to the outer world... Its not a bad idea to show the world what my little world is like =]

How exciting

Oh wonderful japan went for a little swim after its little shock and now its spewing green stuff that the news says can kill... OH NO haha, all this news has blown up the actual seriousness of the problem, i totally agree it is a disaster but professionals say that this level of radiation will not kill people or have serious long term damage.

I mite be a bad person for saying this but i kinda want it to blow up :/

Train :O

Once again i am on the train packed with people.... Hmmm this day was really blank it felt like i haven't done anything which is true even
 though i tried to. I seem to have a problem getting my point across so that other people understand what i am really saying....
Its the same as when i am trying to argue with people i know what i want to say but i don't actually say what i am thinking in my mind, i guess i just don't have any control of what i do in real time, sometimes.

Hehe back to trains....
I only like them when the whole carriage is empty and the train is either the new ones that have yellow everywhere and air conned, or the ones that look like a tin can with windows you can open all stops ^^.

One free day on the train with my camera =] i shall do that one day.....

Rich people........

Oh how i hate the ones that boast about how rich they are.... why would you do it if you dont want to spend it on other people.........

If i was rich i could do so many things... I agree with my friend, why would you need all the money in the world if your not gonna use it, there seems to be no point. There is only a certain amount of money i would like to spend on myself then i just wouldn't know what else to do with the extra cash if i had any left...

What i would do with my money(if i had enough)

• Buy camera lenses thats around 10k
• A table for my room about $500
• A chair $300
• Clothes 10k
• Car 200k
• House (unkown amount)
• then the rest i would just help friends in need...

People say money cant buy happiness that is true but it can help if you had it.....