26/06/2010 - 27/06/2010

The day from dusk till dawn the scenery the sky had put up was beautiful no matter what. As the moon rose to the top of the sky the sun sank behind the skyscrapers of the city, as it sunk the sky was illuminated by the orange glow as it was retreating the sky above me where the moon sat, when the last glimpse of the suns glow was gone the moon shone bright, it lit up the clouds making the night even more beautiful. An hour before the sun rose the sky was to beautiful where the sky was lit with the stars, the radiant moon and the clouds that were trimmed by the shine from the moon, the water was calm and showed the reflection clearly making that night the perfect night. The chill from the wind soothed my skin as it brushed pass, also making the trees perform a symphony of sounds.

Goodbye?

She had some trouble with herself, he was always there to help her, and she always belonged to someone else. I've had you so many times but somehow...... I want more......

I don't mind spending every day, out on your corner in the pouring rain and look for the girl with the broken smile and ask her if she wants to stay awhile and she will be loved she just will be.

Tap on my window knock on my door, I want to make you feel beautiful, I know I tend to get so insecure but it doesn't matter anymore my heart is full and my door's always open you can come anytime you want cause I don't mind spending everyday listening to you and making you smile....

I know where you hide alone in your room and know all of the things that make you who you are I know that goodbye means nothing at all because she comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls.

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye......

Phat

Dear fat cells,

Why do you like storing so much why cant you just listen to me, you dont need to store any more energy i have ennough i dont need you any more >< please go away........

Phat man

Dissapointed....

I trust u with something but when ur not happy with me you just toss me around and destroy the trust that we have made over time why should you be angry at me............. you have gone too far dont expect me to ever help you again...

But i have thought it out if you are to treat me that way fine but i just will not respect you like i will with other people you are one step away from me hating your guts. I swear if you do something else that destroys what i gave you, you will cease to exsist in my life...

To someone who longs for a post about them..

Hello i am finally writing this post for you, because there is something i want to say but to try my best not to upset you, so here we go....

You are starting to turn out like the person you long for in certain ways, that is annoying me a bit but lately u have not done those things, you have also tried to help me find out why but when you did it you did not seem like you wanted to do it, maybe because u really didnt want me to know how that person really feels or u just didnt want to make that person angry. I dunno why  i think that maybe its just me underating myself for the piority i get from you but oh well.

I think that you sometimes put me second best because when other people are around, haha what a silly thing to think please dont take this too personally but if u want the truth of what i think that is what my opinion on the recent events that have happened.

I didnt mean to hurt anyone with what i did that day i just did it for fun, i thought you thought it was just fun i cant see why he is so seriouse about this what else did i do to make that person so unhappy with me..... anyway i just wanted to know what u tthought about that day did you think it was awkward/uncomfortable or did you think it was fine with what i did that day i want to know your opinion.

Overall you are a very good person that dosent like confrontation, i dunno i like how i can help you when u need someone there when no one is around that u can talk to. I dont mind being 2nd best but i just wanna know why i cant be like the others.

Your good friend Nightseeker =]

Who am i.....

You make me smile when you appear.

You can show all your emotions through a day.

I like it when i see you cry.

I live to seek you.

Your dark side is wonderful.

For those who know me they will know what this is really about....

Always 2nd best...

I am the one that is always there for you but i am always the last that gets acknowleged, there is always someone that is more important than me why? do i really deserve to be treated like this...

Why i dont love....

The reason i dont love is because i feel that i would say no if i asked myself out i  feel like i am the worst possible choice on the face of this earth....

I just cannot think of a reason that people will love me enough to be commited in a relationship...  Even worse all my friends have put me as backup so it seems because if there is someone else they wont need me so i am just a person that will fill up someones time when they have no other option. I can only dream but i do not think anything will happen unless i have something to give back, when i go out with another girl i feel like hiding myself so i do not ruin their reputation or the way people look at them becase it just seem like i am a negative, just one big negative of a person...