On Christmas Eve I went out with a friend to her family BBQ, when we walked out onto the beach I realised how much I missed the ocean... All I could think and do was to take in the moment. Sea breeze, crashing waves, dark night sky with holes in the dark fabric of night allowing light to shine through. At the same time there was someone that I felt I needed to take care of. Even though it may not have been my place to do it because all I am is a friend.
This friend said I was a good person, as if there would be no one else that would sit on the beach with another friend, just to be free of all worries at that moment in time. So am i really a "good person"? if it is true then why doesn't it show, all it has provided me with is a lifetime supply of anti-happiness.
Some days i just want to be all alone, then i wont have to look for people to support me, and having to wonder if the people i tell even want to deal with the issues i have, I only listen because i don't want anyone to feel like there is no one there to help, but it seems this role has expired and no one requires my presence.
So i take my leave in trying to help... if you want it get it somewhere else please. I no longer understand how and why people make the choices they make.
I just want you to know that I am here for you. I know it might not always seem that way, but I will always support you. Even if I can't show it at the time. And when I can, I will always drop everything to help you if ever you need a friend to talk to or a shoulder to lean on. And you are a good person. If you're willing to take care of your friends and be a good listener, that is proof on its own. Unfortunately, being a good person isn't always enough for some people, but that's not your fault. Some people just click and are a perfect match for each other, but others aren't as compatible, and there isn't much that anyone can do about that. If anyone doesn't like you for who you are, that's their problem. Don't blame yourself or doubt whether you're a good person or not, because you are. And just stay faithful that, one day, you will find someone special who loves you for who you are, and will stand by your side and hold your hand through everything, both good and bad, and will never let you go. But until then, don't ever feel alone, there will always be someone here for you. :)
ReplyDeleteHehe thanks Mr Caleb Rush :)
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